Morrison Homeschool 2012

School time at the Morrison household. Lately we've had some set backs but I think things are going to start looking up. Its hard to put into words the feelings you get when you know that God has asked you to do something. I cant seem to find the right ones. But I keep trekking along knowing in my heart that this is the right thing to do. Its hard I wont lie. Harder than anything Ive done in my adult life. Harder than giving birth, going through a divorce and being a single mom.

Its not like anyone ever said "hey homeschooling is easy". If it was everyone would do it. It definitely not a choice to be made lightly. I never went to college, I dont feel like Im this great teacher. We have days where maybe only one or two subjects gets done. We also have days where nothing gets done. I know Jordan is behind in some areas and I only feel increasing pressure to get him caught up. I wonder if Im doing the right thing. I have doubts. I know this is the devil placing these doubts and I shouldnt listen to them but its hard not to.

Then there is the idea that I will have Conor starting kindergarten in the fall. Now I will have two kids to teach. This scares me. Im not sure how things will go. I have to have faith that God will guide me through this process. Theres a local homeschool service center that offers curriculum and testing twice a week for a monthly fee. Im still looking into this. With some of the problems Ive been having with Jordan this may be the best option. We'll see at the end of this year.

I know this is just a stage in my life and that soon I will be moving onto another stage. For now Im trying to enjoy the moments I have with my kids. To watch them learn and grow. For I know that soon this stage will be over.